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The Good, The Bad and the Reality

Monday, August 24, 2009

For six weeks Iíve been unable to put weight on my right leg without really bad pain. So Iíve been unable to walk without a limp. Iíve gone from wearing a pedometer and getting my 10,000 steps a day, to trying to get from the bedroom to the kitchen with the fewest number of steps possible.

You can imagine I Ďve done a lot of sitting; a lot of time in my recliner with my feet up, listening to books on my ipod with my cat Rosie by my side.

I only go places I really have to go and where I can get what I need with the fewest number of steps. Getting in the car is difficult because it really hurts when I lift my right leg to get in. Iíve started backing up to the front seat, sitting, then swiveling around until Iím in position to drive. Still some pain there, but not nearly as much. I can only get in and out of the car about twice on any given trip, then I have to go home. Some days I wait for Joe to get my mail and put out my garbage so I don't have to walk to the end of the drive.

Iíve lived with chronic pain for about 7 or 8 yrs. This is the first time Iíve had pain anyone could ďseeĒ. Ususally, pain is invisible, except to me. Now I canít walk, so itís visible. I really donít like that.

Iíve tried chiropractic, massage, ice, rest, and now am scheduled for MRI and Orthopedic appointments.

All this has brought me to a lot of thinking about my life. Iím big on counting my blessings and start each day that way. Now Iíve divided my paper into two columns - Good and Bad. The Good column goes on endlessly, being thankful for family, loved ones, good health, excellent blood-work, seldom ill, nice home, nice neighborhood, reliable auto, steady income which does not depend on me working ever again, many toys like HDTV, ipod, endless art supplies and books, etc.

The Bad side has only one entry - Pain.

After my last massage late one afternoon, the following day showed some improvement for the first time. I began to have an hour or two during the day when I could put weight on my leg and walk around the house without limping! Still some pain, some residual soreness, and I had to be careful not to walk too fast or over uneven ground. Next day, even better. As long as I interspersed an hour of rest in between times on my feet, I could get around a little longer, still with some pain but not enough to make me limp.

Itís so amazing how the act of putting one foot in front of the other can be such a great and wonderful thing. Pain brings you to a halt and gives you lots of time to think. Iím so grateful now for the act of walking which we usually take for granted and have added it to my morning litany of ďThank You for...Ē

Iíve gained about five pounds over these past six weeks of immobility. I wasnít able to exercise much before the limping began. Once it took hold, despair set in; fear of never being able to walk again without a limp, etc. etc. The only thing I can do that feels good, when pain is bad and Iím so down, is eat. Now thatís a hard habit to break, especially after eight years of it.

But, hey, thatís why Iím here.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
ESHTEMOA 8/25/2009 10:41AM

    Sorry to hear that you are experiencing so much pain.Don't give up ,continue to pray about it .
HE is the great physician for whom nothing is impossible.
Keep up your positive attitude and it will help with your healing.
Just said a little prayer for your healing.
Much Love,

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GRANDMAHOWLEY 8/25/2009 7:47AM

    Good morning Karen! I hope your strong positive attitude and realistic appraisal of your situation gives you the strength you need to deal with your pain. I am so sorry to hear that you are suffering.
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BETTERCATHY 8/24/2009 7:45PM

    Remember that you are so much more than your weight. Take care of the whole Karen. It sounds like you are understanding that you have to deal with each challenge as it arises! Stay strong and believe in yourself!

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SERENITYSEL 8/24/2009 3:38PM

    Hi, I know you are in severe pain, but you are still an inspiraton to me. Your positive attitude is contagious.

My personal belief is we are "allowed" to go through these trials so we may help others, and you surely are doing that here.

I'm praying for you my friend!!!! So you gained a few pounds, when you are well enough, you WILL lose that 5 and 5 more in no time. Your sheer will and stamina will NOT allow you to do nothing about it, when you are able.

It is nice that you have times of being able to walk a little without pain, but don't overdo it or you will only hurt yourself. God bless my dear friend. Huggs too!!!! emoticon emoticon

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JUDY1676 8/24/2009 11:46AM

    Sure hope you find out what's going on really soon! Pain is no fun!
Keep up the positive thinking and counting your blessings! My prayers are with you.

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FISHINGLADY66 8/24/2009 9:18AM

    I hope you can find out what is causing the pain soon. Keep counting your blessings and keep thinking positive. I will remember you in my prayers. Bless you.

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BELTONWALKER67 8/24/2009 8:22AM

    I sure hope the MRI can find out what's going on and a treatment can be found to fix the problem so the pain will go away. Just rest and continue to keep those positive thoughts until the pain free days arrive. Take care of yourself.



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