Saturday, August 22, 2009
well I have totally made up this week for my gaining the past two weeks. I am currently down to 226.9 pounds! That's a total of 46.1 pounds this year. wow 226 seems low. I look at it and it doesn't feel real... I still feel like I'm 250 for some reason even though I am noticeably alot smaller now.
I am really elated, When I look in the mirror what I see makes me happy. Its really a awesome feeling when you start to like what you see in the mirror.... when if you were told today that you would look exactly how you do now, forever it wouldn't be that bad. You see I have always wanted a smooth silloete... I could be a size 20 as long as everything was smooth all the way down and in proportion. I despise rolls but I have always had problems with looking like a pack of rolls. I'm really not that bad now. My sides which use to be boobs, roll, top tummy roll, bottom tummy roll and then hips is now almost smooth... there is a little puckering here and there but for the majority its one long line. I like that.
Its funny because now that I am smaller, I can lose 5 pounds and see a change, where before it would take at least 15 to see any new changes in my body. Its exciting and really pushes me to not eat that second helping or get up on that elliptical and do just 20 more minutes.
I'm so happy.
Me and my sister had a bet going to see who could lose the most weight this week. she weighs like 270 pounds and I have really been trying to motivate her to be motivated to change. She says she's going to do better each week but then eats bad stuff or eats too much or doesn't exercise and then gets really sad when she doesn't lose. I bet her 5 dollars that I could lose more weight than her at the beginning of the week and we put both 5 dollar bills in a jar with our weights written down.
She has worked so hard this week. She's exercised almost every day and been really good about writing down her food. It almost makes me sad that I lost 4 pounds this week because I know its prob gonna be hard to her to compete. I don't think she lost that much ..... I hope she did though, I hope she beats me so she can continue her motivation. I want her to be happy and healthy, and know how great it feels to lose weight and accomplish something that once seemed impossible.
I wish it was as easy as putting 5 bucks in a jar to motivate the rest of my family to live healthier lifestyles. I guess you cant change someone who doesn't really want to change themselves though.
Here is to another great week!!!