my current goal is to gain 10 lbs (of muscle of course) which i hope to gain by fall.
so I've been trying to get as many calories as possible, which isn't always easy. sometimes you just don't feel hungry, but I know I need the fuel if I'm going to grow. and that's basically the bottom line. muscle needs fuel to grow. you can't expect to get big if you don't eat big.

last year I was able to reach 253 lbs, so id like to beat that this year. then when the spring rolls around again i can cut my calories and get lean for the beach weather.

I know this whole concept sounds strange to most of you, but that's why I felt it was important to share it with you. before i started bodybuilding, i just didn't want to be fat anymore, I didn't even care about muscle. but what i found was their are extremes to all things. too small is just as bad as too big. what bodybuilding has brought me is that balance to shape my body in the way i want. arnold compared it to an artist working with clay. lets say the sculpture need a little more deltoids, he can simply add more clay, or shave some away if he adds too much. well bodybuilders do the same thing, only we use muscle instead of clay. too much or too little will not look right. that's the balance I'm talking about.

so right now I'm bulking up. I'm trying to put on as much muscle as possible for the time being. later Ill shave the fat away and re-sculpt my body when I begin dieting down again. its a lot of work, but I would never give it up for anything.

here's a little clip of arnold posing for the mr.olympia. that's my inspiration.

http://www.youtube.com/watch
?v=HEgVM3bzN_Y