Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I'm so grateful to have had the opportunity to drive my GS to his many activities this summer. It's amazing how busy an eight year old can be. I don't remember my now adult sons having such busy schedules when they were little boys. ANYWAY...
Now that he's back in school and his schedule isn't as full, I realize that the time being with him has helped keep me from fretting over what's going on with my back. Ironically, my referral appointment to the ortho doc has come and gone, a fast two months; which is also the amount of time PT said it would take for the pinched nerve to heal and it has. I'm no longer troubled with bursitis in the hip, and the scar tissue from the hip surgery has been broken up and is no longer a problem.
Now I've been told by the ortho doc, and my x-rays, that I have no more disc between L4 and L5 and very little disc between L5 and S1. Thus, the low-back pain and pinched nerve. SO, just when I was beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel it turns out the light is a freight train headed straignt for my fitness goals.
I keep going in spite of the constant low-back pain probably because of the anti-inflamatory meds, PT exercises, water aerobics, and being Spiritually fit. I've also been blessed to be part of a team of women who support each other with words of encouragement and prayer. thank you ladies, and you know who you are, it's no Mystery.
Since learning about my current condition a couple of days ago, I have been up and down emotionally, but my faith and reliance on God has sustained me mentally and spiritually. I have little revelations that have made me cry as well as smile. One is a little song that Miley Cyrus sings called "The Climb." I won't post the whole song here, just the link in case you want to experience the whole song: www.mileycyrus.com.
I will however, include the chorus:
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
I was driving my GS to one of his activities yesterday, listening to radio Disney, when the song came on. I got tears in my eyes and felt God's presence so strong I was empowered to allow myself to be vulnerable; because it is in my weakness that He is strong in me.
Today I went to PT and was able to be transparent with my therapist and express my emotional frailty. Thank God she did not sugar-coat my prognosis but has encouraged me to continue with my fitness program: PT exercises, water aerobics, low-impact Pilates, and three gym machines to strengthen my quads. Which is what I plan to do.
So, I'm okay with not being able to go back to doing my Quick-fires right now. I really need to become more familiar with what my body says to me and for the next few weeks of PT that is exactly what I hope to learn.
Now I may have come to this realization without the Miley Cyrus song while driving my GS; I'm certain God would have provided the inspiration one way or another. Nevertheless, I am grateful for all the ways in which I have been uplifted. It's not about reaching my fitness goals, or becoming a top-notch athlete. It's about getting and staying healthy. It's The Climb.