I weighed in at the doctor's office for the first time 10 days ago. I am happy about that, even though I am not happy I am having to lose another 12 pounds to be back to the weight I was before all the stress started 2 months ago.

To keep my mind in a good place, I have to remember that this is a lifestyle that I intend to keep. That 2 months in light of the rest of my life, is really just a drop in the bucket. It took a great amount of courage for me to step on the doctor's scale, and that was what really kicked me back into reality.

I am determined to stay on target with food. I have surgery in 5 days, and know that I will have less choice to what I get to eat. I will be stuck in bed for at least 3 weeks for extended periods of time. That is not going to be easy for me.

The thing I have to remember is that I will be able to do so much more activity once I heal from this surgery. It is not easy for me to stay still. I have never really been a sedentary person, so it has been torture to have so much trouble with my knees. I had to stop my favorite workouts back in May. I know that is one of the reasons I started gaining weight, so I am a little apprehensive about not being able to work out for at least 3 weeks. I don't know what that will translate on the scale. again it is only temporary.

Hugs to all my friends!
Mary