It is difficult to say...

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I am unable to identify my feelings today. I tried and tried and got nothing. Of course I could have lied. During my Eating Disorder support group there were women from rich to poor, older to younger. Each of us had different disorders, One has bulemic, one was anarexic and like me binge eating. It was shocking to me that every one had the same sysmptom and how we dealt with it was the same.

We hide the food,
We spend money we don't have.
We eat until we are sick.
We don't feel completely in control when it is happen.

Itvery hard to change something so ingrained into your mind. It is the single most difficult thing I have done.

It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not.
James Gordon, M.D.

We rationalize to ourself to get support.
and many other things.

I felt as if I was with sisters. The other helpful thing is that we made 2 short term goals. Mine was to eat three meals a day (still working on that one) and the other was to down load some relaxation and guided imagary. It is very helpful if needing to go to sleep.

I am getting tired again. It is really late.
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    I know this is hard, especially when you're physically exhausted and mentally conflicted. But you CAN be healthy and you DESERVE to have a healthy body. Keep blogging your thoughts, journaling can be a big help - its awesome that you're part of a support group! Keep up the good work!
    3139 days ago
    sounds like you are doing something very healthy for you to help yourself. I'm proud of you. keep up the good work you can dothis.
    3139 days ago
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