Terror in the Night

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I moved to Seoul, South Korea in March for one year. So far everything has been going great. I love my job, my new friends and my life here in general. However, in July someone broke into my apartment and stole my laptop and nothing else.

My landlady put bars on my windows and I changed my door code (its a pin pad lock) but I still don't feel safe. Last night I woke up in a terror because I thought someone was breaking into my apartment, I jumped out of bed, rushed to the door, started banging on the door and screamed "get out". I was so sure someone was trying to break in but I think it was just my neighbour getting into her own apartment. Needless to say, I feel like a mad woman.

I thought I was fine with the break in thing but I realize I don't feel safe anymore. I feel a bit violated. I have a new laptop and I make sure I hide it under my mattress every time I go out even if it is for a minute or two. The situation is a bit difficult because I don't speak Korean and I'm not sure who to trust. It's harder because I'm starting to really miss my friends and my family back home ever since this happened and I feel lonely in my apartment at night.
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    You are not alone SweetMoya! We are all here with you. I know how you feel (a little), because someone broke into my house once and I saw him as I arrived home from inside my car thru the living room window. He took off running toward the back and I ran around the house to try and catch him (stupid, I know... but I was so angry that I didn't think. I just wanted to kick his behind). Stay strong. You did the right thing getting the bars on the windows and changing the pin. It doesn't hurt to be alert, but don't get paranoid. It's not good for your psyche. Lots of love from Utah! emoticon
    3109 days ago

    It's tough feeling so isolated sometimes. If you need to have your faith restored in people, I'd love to hang out and chat or do something sometime.
    3139 days ago
    the way you feel is normal. It happens because your space has been violated. I've been there with the house and the car. It'll take time before you feel safe again but before you go to bed at night, pray that God will encamp His angels around you and your home and He will. Just trust Him. I pray that things get better for you real soon
    3140 days ago
    I had an apartment broken into a couple years ago. Though they took a lot more than just a laptop. It was crazy, and you really do feel violated. I moved out of that apartment as soon as my lease was up (just a couple months I think)

    Hope this helps you feel like your not mad. It's normal feel that way. It'll pass.

    Good luck!
    3140 days ago
    It sounds like you are having difficulty adjusting. This is completely normal. The break in is just making things worse. You are far away from home in a place that you are not completely familiar with. To top it off you are of a different culture and speak a different language. Give yourself some time. When you are feeling anxious try to talk positively to yourself. Sit down or lie down and let your feelings pass. Try to breath slowly to calm yourself down. Try to reach out with other Americans (assuming you are American) who may live in your community. They may help to be a substitute for your real family and friends. Hope this helps. Good luck and I wish you the best.
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