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Feeling depressed and failing

Wednesday, August 12, 2009



Well started with my program a few months ago and time is running out for me. I had six months to lose over 50 kg. The thing that depresses me the most is hearing about friends that lose 50 kilos over a period of 5 months but considering all they used diet pills and supplements to assist them. I am not using any of that to assist in my weight loss I am doing it al naturally without that assistance. Now looking ahead I have less than 3 months for loose 45 kilo's, for the doctors to help me with IVF.

Worst part of feeling this way is that I am doing everything that I am suppose to but all that is going is the centimeters the kilo's is not coming off as I am hoping for. This is a sacrifice that I need to make to become a mother. It breaks my heart not being able to be one yet and to look at pictures of friends with their kids and babies. A program that really touches my heart is "Birth stories" On how mothers give birth and the miracle of life.
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MARYANNE4403 8/14/2009 8:31PM

    maybe God has decided now is not the right time for you to get pregnant, keep on working at your program like you have been, the weight will come off and you will be able to get your IVF. i LOVE to watch birth stories too, it's a great show

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MICHELE0329 8/13/2009 8:03AM

    Oh sweetie....You can do this!!! Just take it, one day at a time!! Thats all we have! God has his hand on you...He will see you threw this! Just put your trust in Him, and thank Him for the inches you have lost and He will do the rest!! Wake up, everey morning and say "Thank you God, that today is the day, I am going to do what I need to do, to reach my goal." Than at night before you go to bed, "Thasnk you God, that I am one day closer, to reaching my weight loss goal." We are ALL behind you!! I would want you to STOP watching the baby shows on tv, and instead...exercise and stay in prayer. Change up your exercise routine..I had to! Dont put anything in your mouth, that will NOT help you, reach your goal. I will be praying for you, my friend!!! Hang in there!!! :) HUGS!!

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EMMASMART 8/12/2009 10:24PM

    It seems to me you've succeeded. It seems to me that 50 Kilos is a log to lose in a short period of time. It's hard because you have a real goal for a real reason with a real deadline. It's an important goal. If you are losing cms. what that means is the you are converting fat to muscle. Muscle boosts your resting metabolic rate, which will eventually help you burn fat. Consider changing your exercise program. more areobic and less weights. and then change it back. I know you love the tv program about women giving birth... I watch it too. But it makes me cry because I will never do that. I'm not going to do it. Not in this lie. So I watch it and cry. It brings me down. So I've been writing more and watching TV less and talking with my girl-friends more and exercising more and My mood is improved. Don't do things that make you sad. (They make us eat) I need to shrink for different important reasons than you. Being positive and gentle with yourself, will get you much closer to your goal than getting upset and depressed about it. Choose to be inspired choose to do your very best, choose to praise yourself about how well you are doing. Choose to accept what happens. You will get closer that way...

Hang in there!

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ALNEAGLE 8/12/2009 11:27AM

    Hang on! I heard someone say once, "When your at the end of your rope, tie a knot!" I know it seems like you won't make it, but you never know when your body will just kick in and shed the weight. I have been on my weight loss plan for nearly 6 months, but didn't lose anything the first 4. Then in Mid June it started coming off. I was sitting at a 10 pound weight loss the last time I weighed. I won't weigh again until the end of August but hope that 10 more pounds have come off. Give it time. The weight will come off. It will surrender to the pressure of all the exercise and healthy eating soon enough.
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Amanda

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REDNECKFEMINIST 8/12/2009 10:19AM

    Perfection does not exist, the fact that you are trying is a success, hang in there with the rest of us!

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LADYIRISH317 8/12/2009 9:48AM

    You are NOT failing! You're becoming stronger every day, even if the scale isn't moving at the pace you'd like. Your friends who are taking pills will unfortunately possibly pay a price for it later. You're taking the healthy path, and it will ultimately pay rewards for both you and your future child(ren). Don't be discouraged, and PLEASE don't consider yourself a failure because you definitely are not.

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TIFFWINTER 8/12/2009 9:34AM

    Awww, honey! I just wanna throw my arms around you and give you a big hug!!! I'll be thinking about you! hang in there!

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