Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Since I really, really try to remain a very positive person, I haven't been blogging much lately. We all go through times in our lives when our journey isn't all happy happy joy joy and that is one of those times for me. Not to say that I am not fortunate or blessed but at times life can be hard to swallow.
Losing my dad was an obvious blow. A very big blow. Unfortunately, his passing was just the beginning of a tough journey. There are so many things that have to be taken care of and none of it can be done over night. I have been handling things pretty well but I have my moments. This is the grieving process. You are plotting along and all of a sudden you get hit by the emotion and finality of it all. It just sucks. I miss my dad terribly
Having to get his things ready for an estate sale has gone well because of such FANTASTIC friends, a few of which I met here on spark. Not only are they there for me on my weight loss journey, they have been there for me on this journey called life. I want to thank Happy92003 (Kelly) because I don't know where I would be without your encouragement, support and help. You are the bestest sparkfriend (or just plain friend) a girl could ask for! Fhamwey and wolfkitty are two other great sparkfriends that have really stepped up to the plate and helped me out. Thanks ladies! You guys help show what sparklove is all about! THANK YOU!!!
I also have to co workers who I have recruited to spark and they just rock my socks off!!! SHEQWOLFE and SPARKBURP are lovely ladies who never let me down. They stand by my side and are my support on a daily basis. I hope that I can be the friend to them that they have been to me.
I have a lot to take care of in the coming weeks like trying to sell two Harley Davidson motorcycles, an F-150 truck, and a lifetime worth of accumulated items in an estate sale on 8/22. I also am now responsible for selling my father's condo. I need to pay off a few thousand dollars worth of debt and the list goes on and on. I am lucky, yes, but I am also stressed. This has affected my ability to maintain my healthy eating and exercise habits. I have used this as an excuse to wander off track. THIS IS NO EXCUSE. Life throws us roadblocks and our job is to learn to maneuver them successfully and I am going to focus on this. I may not be able to control all of the things going on around me but I can control my eating and I can control my exercise habits. I need to remember that I feel better about myself and life in general when I am doing these things.
I am not saying that sometimes we need to not be as hard on ourselves but this is not necessary FOR ME. I have been doing this long enough that I have all the skills needed to stay on track. I just need to utilize them. Being rested, energized from eating the right foods and getting in some physical exertion helps me face the day more successfully. I need to remember that.
I am going to stop worrying so much and let God handle it. Sometimes it seems that we try to handle things ourselves and He reminds us that we need his assistance. This journey has shown me that. All in due time. All things will fall into place.