Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Today was AWFUL.
Today through friday, I'm working as a Personal Care Attendant for a boy with about 6 different physical, mental and behavioral issues... It's the most physically and emotionally draining work I've ever done, and while I'm ashamed to admit it... I HATE IT.
But I'm a pushover (I just can't tell his mom no!) and I need the 400 bucks it'll bring in.
So needless to say, when I got home after 8 hours with the kid, I was in the foulest mood possible.
But rather than bake up some of the frozen cookie dough we have, or even have two tacos instead of one for dinner, I came home, put on workout clothes, and did a quick 15-minute circuit to blow off some steam. Then I had a single taco, 3/4 cup of beans and a salad to make my plate look full.... I was craving sweets SO BADLY after dinner!! But rather than dive into dough, I split a Lindt truffle with Miles and chewed gum all evening.
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! I don't really eat with the idea of calming or comforting myself, but I DO justify poor decisions with "it was a crappy day" really easily. But not today! I skipped dessert, despite wanting a giant cookie more than anything! I'm really psyched that I managed this superhuman feat, haha.
It was really, really hard though. Super hard. I am so used to eating sweets after every dinner, and it is one heck of a habit to break.
Luckily, I am kind of lazy, so the fact that the only way I can get a dessert is to either 1.) drive to a creemee stand or 2.) defrost the dough, preheat the oven, and bake the cookies for 12 minutes, really does help me not eat dessert.
Let's just hope I don't break down tomorrow and just go for the frozen dough!