Feeling Resentful and Tired
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
At times I resent being female. Everyone expects you to take care of them, but they don't give anything back, except my husband, thank God. I can understand this with my kids, who are 7 and 14, that's how kids are. But, my grown extended family is this way, also. I need to learn to tell them to go to He** in so many words, not literally, but just to not care what they think of me, and set boundaries and limits. I'm really annoyed that my older sister is coming in town, they have always pandered to her, and now I'm expected to fall in line, join in with them, drop everything in my life, and go pay her homage. Yes, I'm a little bitter. Now I have something else to pray about and let go of. I see that I still have some jealousy and bitterness over my toxic and dysfunctional family system. I do want to see her, but I need to have my own needs taken into account, too. I've emailed her several times, to suggest various activities that would meet the needs of my boys and I, and her and her older kids too, but have had no response from her. Most of the time I'm over these ugly family issues, but they seem to raise their heads whenever my sisters come into town for a visit.