Recently, I have seen several blogs or post of negative affirmations of one's self. Please do not misunderstand me. I am no where near where I want to be and will be.
I remeber when my unit at FT Bragg was deployed to Iraq in 1990. I was 18 going 19. When we got to Iraq, it was a hold another world over there. We have built this place up. Bu my special ops, was the first units there. Many of my buddies, were attempting suicide, some succeeded. Others got pregant intentionally to be returned the States.
I joined the choir that our tent city had formed. I watched so many people my age going,; creating all kinds of situations, some detrimental than others to go. I lay in my sleeping that nigh, as the air war beginned crying, asking God, to not allow me to give up on him. I knew I could easily give up on myself. As a I am breathing today, God said to me, I will never put more on you than you can bear.
I did not want slit my wrist, or try to get pregnant, but I was scared as h ---. What I have learned through my military experience, you may not always like the circumstances, the pain that you will endure. I am in no way above or have mastered this logic. But I believe whole heatedly, if God allows us to go through it, we have the strength, the faith to get through it.
So to all my Spark Friends, who feel like I can't write as good as others, my article won't make sense. This maybe to much to expose before people I barely know.
Remember this is not about or them, this is your personal walk with yourself and God. So I have put some inspirations that I hope every time, you think I am not posting, or I am going to quit Sparks today. Whether its' SparkPeople, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers.
Hang in there! You will get to the good stuff, and reap the fruit of your hard labor. I love you and be encouraged, as I will eat a dose of my own medicine...everyday.
because you are worth it!
and you are beautiful, just the way you are...we just know it yet! Haaaa!