Friday, August 07, 2009
I am sorry but I just have to write my Blog on this today because this is something I never want to forget. I do go back and read my Blogs again and again as learning tools and this is definitely one that is going to up there as far as a confidence booster or a reminder when I am feeling down just exactly why I am doing this.
I am speechless and humbled at the same time. I am so honored to have been chosen as The Done Girl of the Day. I feel like I am up there on a stage accepting an Academy award or something. I have lost count of all of the Spark Goodies I have received and so far this afternoon I have well over 10 pages of comments on my Spark page just pertaining to congratulations. This is just mind blowing!
I actually found the team, I AM Done Being the Fat Girl by accident. I was visiting someone else’s Spark Page when I saw this under all the teams they were on. Who ever came up with that name is a genius. I am thinking to myself what a great way to express what we are all going through. I have to check this out. I was hooked after reading the 1st thread.
I am reading through all of these responses and I am saying to myself – “me, I inspire all of these people? They are happy to read what I write? What I say matters?” I do not see myself like that. Here I am at now 344 pounds and I inspire people? All I have been doing is trying to offer encouragement to others. Handing out tidbits of knowledge I have picked up here and there. I mean after being overweight my whole life you would think I have a Masters Degree in Diets with all the information I have packed away in my brain. I know all of this stuff and it is only now that I am finally starting to use all of this stuff I have learned. I am just trying to share what I know to help others so that they do not become so OBESE. There I said the word. I am just trying to offer advice where I can and encourage where I can. This is a tough journey to become a normal weight and to have to travel alone so I want to be there to help whoever I can.
Like I said I am humbled. I have always equated self worth with that number I see on the scale; that is why I have to see that number on that stupid thing. I have been successful in pretty much every area of my life except my weight.
It is actually all of you that inspire me. It is all of you that are helping keeping me on track. I guess that is the whole essence of Spark People. We are all in one place sharing our knowledge, giving support and motivation being there to laugh and cry with. No one passes any judgments. You are all there for me when I need you no matter what time of the day or night it is.
I THANK all of you for your kind words and support. God I love Spark People! You have made this one of the best days of my life. I LOVE YOU DONE GIRLS!! !!!