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Today I have eaten 4 chocolate chip cookies...

Friday, August 07, 2009

and I don't feel one bit better. emoticon

Funny thing about comfort foods...they aren't actually all that comforting.

I've definitely hit the wall on this whole journey to health and fitness. Actually, I think I've hit the wall in general in life. I can't shake my own depression. I can't drum up any motivation, or energy, or even hope. Sigh.

On March 30 of this year, I gave birth to my second child. Exactly one month later, my DH lost his job. So here we are with medical bills on top of normal basic living expenses, and limited means to pay for any of it.

I hear exercise is a natural "upper" and heaven knows I need a boost right now. But I can't seem to get moving. I just want to sleep. And apparently eat chocolate chip cookies.

I don't want to whine; I know lots of people are in the same boat right now. But life seems so hard at the moment, and I am just struggling. Sorry for venting, but there it is.

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KARRI28 8/11/2009 7:37AM

    I'll be praying for your family, KEHWIE. Remember, don't sweat the small stuff, a few cookies is not going to ruin your hard work (I had my fav ice cream last night!) Just remember Proverbs 3, 5-6. Hang in there, and don't beat yourself up.

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BAREADER 8/10/2009 6:48PM

    emoticon on the new baby!

I hope you are feeling better soon, you really should talk to your doctor about your depression.

About the cookies, I know how you feel, that is my absolute favorte cookie in the world, I CANNOT pass them up if they are any where around. But you will be okay, you are aware and you will do something differently next time. It's when we are not aware and eat without thinking that we get into real trouble. I really have to plan to eat something like that, if I eat it when I know I really shouldn't it spoils my enjoyment of it.

Hang in there girl, things will get better.

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JULESGL 8/8/2009 3:13AM

    Congratulations! You've got the idea that food is for nutrition and comfort is best sought elsewhere. I know this too, and I slip up all the time. Each day I get better at it. Keep on practicing healthy!!!

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TEXASLYNN 8/7/2009 5:49PM

    Okay, so you had 4 cookies or a whole bag of them. You didn't get overweight in one day and you aren't going to get thin in one. You had a really bad day; you know it and there is no sense in beating yourself over the head with it. You've obviously turned the corner when you can acknowledge that the second, third, and/or fourth cookie didn't really taste that good.

Get up off the ground, brush yourself off, and get back on the wagon.

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MITECU 8/7/2009 4:44PM

    First of all, congratulations on the birth of your 2nd child. This is a time to enjoy as he/she grows and becomes the person he/she is meant to be.
Motherduck's right about ppd. See yourdoctor. And the current financial situation doesn't help. We need to have a place to vent and that's what a blog is for.
Trust in God. He has a plan for you. In His time, everything will fall into place.

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MOTHERDUCK3 8/7/2009 3:47PM

    My heart goes out to you. I understand. Don't forget about postpartum depression. Talk to your doctor. It can show up this late.

You are so right about comfort food. I've been eating a lot of it lately and it really doesn't help. Just have to keep starting over no matter how long it takes it. YOU ARE WORTH IT! So you had 4 chocolate chip cookies. You can choose to start over as often as you need to. It is not about being perfect.

I understand where you are about your husband's job. My husband has been out of work since March also. It is hard. Thankfully the Lord is good. Press into Him. He will meet you right where you are.

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