It Was a Very Good Year
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Itís hard for me to believe it, but today marks my one-year anniversary with
Spark People. One would think it would be easy for me to write a thoughtful reflection on the occasion, but itís not.
I didnít come here looking for a magic wand to wave or even a new diet plan. In fact, I came here because Iíd become involved in another social networking site and my (then) health coach recommended I check it out. (If youíre reading this, Jennifer, I will forever be grateful for that recommendation, for what you taught me, and the time we had together.)
Iíve applied what Iíve learned about self-examination, social support, and goal setting to so many areas of my life over the past year, from fitness goals to de-cluttering goals, to financial goals. Iím going to be perfectly honest with you. I havenít lost a lot of weight. I havenít run a marathon. I havenít paid off all my debt. And I still have areas of my home that are packed with way too much stuff.
But Iím a very different person than I was a year ago. I have more ďtoolsĒ in my tool box, and I actually get them out and use them. Iíve learned the value of being brutally honest with myself and of giving and receiving social support. Iíve learned the meaning of ďgood enoughĒ. Iíve learned when itís time to let something go--possessions, beliefs, behavior patterns, and even people that no longer suit the me Iíve become. Iíve learned about my value and not to waste my time worrying about those who donít appreciate it. I have more confidence in myself and my ability to make a plan for the unknown we call tomorrow, and to adjust it as necessary. Iíve learned to operate in faith rather than fear more often than not.
Bottom line is that Iím becoming the kind of person I have long admired and felt I couldnít be. And Iíve learned that feelings can be tricky things that can get me into a whole lot of trouble if Iím not careful. Theyíre often unreliable. They can change very quickly. And perhaps most remarkably, Iíve learned that I have the power to choose the ones that benefit me and reject the ones that donít.
I am still a work in progress, to be sure. But the Spark has been lit, and itís propelling me in the right direction. So happy anniversary, Gnuattitude. The best is yet to come!