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It Was a Very Good Year

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Itís hard for me to believe it, but today marks my one-year anniversary with
Spark People. One would think it would be easy for me to write a thoughtful reflection on the occasion, but itís not.

I didnít come here looking for a magic wand to wave or even a new diet plan. In fact, I came here because Iíd become involved in another social networking site and my (then) health coach recommended I check it out. (If youíre reading this, Jennifer, I will forever be grateful for that recommendation, for what you taught me, and the time we had together.)

Iíve applied what Iíve learned about self-examination, social support, and goal setting to so many areas of my life over the past year, from fitness goals to de-cluttering goals, to financial goals. Iím going to be perfectly honest with you. I havenít lost a lot of weight. I havenít run a marathon. I havenít paid off all my debt. And I still have areas of my home that are packed with way too much stuff.

But Iím a very different person than I was a year ago. I have more ďtoolsĒ in my tool box, and I actually get them out and use them. Iíve learned the value of being brutally honest with myself and of giving and receiving social support. Iíve learned the meaning of ďgood enoughĒ. Iíve learned when itís time to let something go--possessions, beliefs, behavior patterns, and even people that no longer suit the me Iíve become. Iíve learned about my value and not to waste my time worrying about those who donít appreciate it. I have more confidence in myself and my ability to make a plan for the unknown we call tomorrow, and to adjust it as necessary. Iíve learned to operate in faith rather than fear more often than not.

Bottom line is that Iím becoming the kind of person I have long admired and felt I couldnít be. And Iíve learned that feelings can be tricky things that can get me into a whole lot of trouble if Iím not careful. Theyíre often unreliable. They can change very quickly. And perhaps most remarkably, Iíve learned that I have the power to choose the ones that benefit me and reject the ones that donít.

I am still a work in progress, to be sure. But the Spark has been lit, and itís propelling me in the right direction. So happy anniversary, Gnuattitude. The best is yet to come!
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  • NOMOMOLLY
    Wow, that sounds like a pretty inspirational anniversary to me. I can't wait to read your two year one.LOL No seriously, keep up the great work, you have become the special person that you've always known that you are. I've always felt that life isn't always about learning, it's about remembering. Kuddos!
    2507 days ago
  • JOYATLAST
    This is an excellent anniversary assessment. I love your blogs. Once again your honesty and contentment are shining examples for all of us. I love to be reminded that we can all grow and change. It doesn't matter where we start, but how we finish.

    Congratulations and a big "Thank You!".
    2649 days ago
  • DEEDAYE
    Happy Anniversary! emoticon

    We both know that our weight is just part of what we're here to change. As you told me , we have to get our thinking straight first. Our thoughts determine our actions. I'm gals you are becoming a person that YOU can admire. I already admire you. I'm glad you're my friend and That we can take this journey together!
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    2678 days ago
  • INFUSION413
    What a great blog entry!! So proud of you!! And that's the right idea - that each year we would be able to look back and see that we are at an even better place in our growth than the year before! Woo hoo!! Love you!! OXOXO God bless you!
    2680 days ago
  • STAYPRESENT
    Happy, Happy Anniversary! That is such a good idea to reflect on this day. I'm so glad you did join Spark. I've really been encouraged and touched by your words.

    I like what you said about the "Spark" being lit. Also, what you said about you being in progress. It is a journey, not a sprint.

    Keep up the good work and remember we are behind you.

    Terri
    2681 days ago
  • TERRMOR
    Happy Anniversary. What a great blog. I haven't lost a lot of weight either but I am a different person too. I totally relate. You are an inspiration. Keep it up.
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    2682 days ago
  • SALLYC1007
    Happy Anniversary Gnu!!
    I have to say that I agree completely with Karen.
    That one line is so inspiring. That's what I would like to say for myself. You do seem to have an old soul. You're a deep thinker and your words carry wisdom. I pay attention when you speak, you're very inspiring!!
    Wonderful blog post, thank you!
    2682 days ago
  • NEVERAGAIN45
    GNU -

    Do you want to know the one sentence that struck me the most?

    "Bottom line is that I'm becoming the kind of person I have long admired and felt I couldn't be."

    I think that is such a powerful statement and reading it absolutely makes me want to stand up and cheer.

    I can only speak for myself but I admire you so. I've said this before but you have an "old" soul. Wise, kind and fair. I'm so glad you are finally realizing what a strong woman you are.

    You really should consider posting your statement somewhere. We all have our "doubtful" days and I think this would be a wonderful reminder to yourself of how far you have come.

    Great blog and thanks for sharing it with us all.

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    2682 days ago
  • NANCY-
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    How wonderful it is when we actually use those tools in our tool box.

    Enjoy your journey!
    2682 days ago
  • CECEWRITER
    Indeed, Happy Anniversary-Gnuattitude!
    2683 days ago
  • SQUIRTZIE
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    2683 days ago
  • -LISH-
    Congrats on your Sparkiversary, Gnu! Great blog - your growth over the past year is remarkable, by your own account. I didn't know the old you, so I was a bit surprised to hear about the changes that you've made in your behaviours and attitudes. Of particular value, in my view, is the ability to 'let go'. That can be one of the most difficult things to do - but it's a good and important action that everyone should consider in their own lives. What is there in my life that is not working in my favour? I think I'll reflect on that this evening - I'll let you know if I have a revelation. I like to give credit where it's due. Your ability to sustain momentum over the course of the year is what I admire most. Keep it up, gf!
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    2683 days ago
  • JAZZYJB
    Happy Anniversary!! emoticon on your Spark Journey too, I am so glad we have got to know each other throughout this year, you have been a true inspiration to us all and of course you are the best life coach ever! emoticon
    2683 days ago
  • CHBADILLO
    HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!! Many more to come! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and being honest. What an inspiration you are. Keep up the good work. :)
    Christie
    2683 days ago
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