Friday, July 31, 2009
Today I read a blog by Nancy Howard, "The Shame and Pain of Regaining"
She ends her blog asking these questions: "Have you experienced a weight loss only to regain? How did it make you feel? If you have lost weight, do you feel it is only a matter of time before you regain the weight or have you accepted the fact that this journey is about changing your life and not just a number on the scale?"
For me the difference really has been SparkPeople!
In the past I did regain every pound I ever lost and each pound picked up a buddy on the way back. It didn't make me feel good but I was never ashamed because no one wants to be fat. I just didn't know how to keep the weight off.
This time will be different because over the past 16 months I have learned how to manage my food budget.
Is this still just a number on the scale? I don't know. I only know I will never be overweight again as long as I am in control of my life. I am old enough to have seen too many debilitating illnesses that take control out of the hands of the person and yes, it can lead to weight gain. But my main focus has always been on my health, not on my size - so I am as confident as anyone can be that I will be able to control my weight from this day forward. I will never again be fat and I will never be hungry again either!!
**edit: for those that wish they can share SparkPeople - we can! I tell people all the time. I try very hard to get them to sign up even if I fear they will not stay. I didn't stay the first time, but I returned 2 years later! Keep trying, even if it takes a couple of years, we don't know who we can reach today.