Even though I will be starting before fall, its fall fix-up time.
I did something I NEVER do and when I got out of the shower I actually looked in the mirror........OUCH.........is all I can say. And I actually think I have found one of my very big stopping points when I looked in that mirror......................."
what will I do with all that skin if I lose weight". then the fear grabbed me, and I asked myself the same question many different ways, with many different tones of voice and kept coming up with the same answer........."I don't know, and should I really worry about that?" And I don't know the answer to that one. So what am I to do? That is my big question now. Sounds stupid I know but I am terrified of the skin.
On another note we went to the surgeon for hubby today............he is having surgery on the 10th of August to decompress the nerves in the elbow and wrist of his right arm. Bad news is the damage will never be corrected, the best we can hope for is to stop it from getting any worse. The other bad news is that the left one is getting the same way...........good news with the left is that we may be able to save that one completely with doing another surgery on the left early.
Needless to say the stress level in the house is through the roof right now. And then there is always the money situation which is horrible right now because there is no extra money. Good news about that is that I have dusted off the business papers and will start rewriting my letters to lawyers this weekend.
More good news is that youngest is working many more hours for the rest of the summer at least, and oldest is going to start her training as a level 3 pharmacy technician/pharmacists assistant in the next week or two, and she will be working more hours also.
More good news is that the grandsons operation to put the tube in his ears went well and he is picking up new words and also the correct way to pronounce words he knows already. So its a pretty even balance between bad and good news.......which in and of itself is good news.
I will undoubtedly be working extra hours which can be a real fly in the ointment for me, but I am going to work hard to overcome that roadblock and get busy doing what I know I NEED to do. I foresee many speed bumps along the way, and many roads I may get lost on without help, so I am back...........back to all of you who can help me the most, the board family I so desperately need and love, and who will coach and coax me through the rough spots, of which I expect many....................but who better than the best of my friends who are succeeding already in their journey's to health and fitness.....................wh
o better than all of you who have "BEEN THERE, DONE THAT". Who better than the people that know me the best. I need all of you desperately now, to keep me focused, to keep challenging me, to keep kicking me when I need it most.
So you can soon expect to see daily posts...........yes even work days. Even if its just to say............."Good Morning my buddies, had a good day or a bad day"............whichever the case may be.
So here is my pouring out of my thoughts and emotions for now. Am I scared...............Hell ya......I am terrified. A long one tonight for sure, and may not be done yet, the mind is reeling and the thoughts are flying around in my head so fast I need to do the Dr. P thing and slow them down............that in itself will be a good fight.........one that I intend to win.
Working the next 3...............and then the games will begin.
Hugs to all