Tuesday, July 28, 2009
So, I work for a toxic person. She just really knows how to get my goat. Additionally, my dad is married to her. Can't get away from her, really.
Yesterday morning, she accused me of sneaking into her house and stealing her hair brushes. Why the hell would I wanna do that?! Why the hell would ANYONE wanna do that?
Anyhow, my point is, before I really started working on myself, I probably would have ended up getting right back in her face and getting way more upset than I did. Instead, I let her crazy-lady accusations just slide right off me and minded my own damned business. I think the exercise is helping me manage my stress. I'm quick to anger, and I've noticed my anger response is slowing down a little.
Still, every time she's around, my stomach knots up.
Ugh...she's just poisonous.
I found a quote on the internet that I'm gonna repeat here:
Know that when a person is toxic, it is because of their own issues. Accept that a toxic person's behavior has nothing to do with you. In life, each of us has to take responsibility for our own actions. Toxic people do not do this. They have a habit of turning things around so that you feel bad, you feel guilty, and you feel like you are at fault. Realize this and take back your power.
Remembering this is helping me out. It used to be so bad with her that I had to go to the doctor and get a prescription of anxiety medication. I would wake up in the middle of the night enraged and anxious.
At least I'm taking control of what I can control, and that's my body and my reactions to her behavior.
Edit: I went back and found the address of where I got that quote.