Whew I am almost there....over 18 months ago I started on my journey...My journey to find me, love me, be a better me inside and out and embrace life.
My goal, my finish line for me is in 12 days...the Triathlon...I goal for me, to prove to ME that I can do it.....I have upped my workouts...been pushing and pushing for every stroke, pedal and step...
My favorite place to bike....Case Mountain.
Throughout my journey this place has been my special place...it is about 12 miles from my house, takes me about an hour to get there on my bike, enough time to clear my head and breathe...Once I get there the hike up is my release, I just leave it all on my mountain, all my struggles, fears and headaches are gone..
OK, I can't believe I just posted those silly pics, but my mountain brings out the silly in me and makes me smile from the inside out...love it!
Me, My Lexie and one of my GF's went to practice the Tri bike and run a few weeks back....the ride was good, a few hills that were a bit difficult but I felt pretty comfortable for the ride...I cant say the same for my friend...ha ha...
I keep telling her she IS doing the Tri with me next year, she is too much and I am so grateful to have such a good friend that went with me (hangover and all..haha) to support and ride with me...THANK YOU Lizzy I love you!!!
My Lexie was my running partner for the course...
OK. why is that baby girl of mine laughing and smiling and I feel like I am going to die...ha ha..the air was hot and thick...my breathing was off...but we ran part of the course for theTri, next practice run will be earlier in the day to try to avoid the heat....Thank you to my beautiful Lexie...always my Hero!
A new place that I cherish....the lake....
I have had the pleasure of swimming out here with friends for the past few weeks, I will admit at first, this girly girl was not digging it...I am a pool girl, never swam in anything other than a pool for 36 years so this was VERY differerent...but I have to admit, once I swam it a few times I fell in love...and I am VERY thankful for the friends that I have that share this great place with me....Grandma says......THANK YOU (haha)
My biggest ride so far was this past Saturday...I biked to that beautiful lake...it is over 18 miles each way and VERY HILLY...about 5 miles into the ride there, I wanted to turn back, wanted to quit...actually had a "fluffy girl" thought...I was going to ride home quick, throw my bike in the back of my Jeep and drive to friends house/lake, but park like around the corner from their house so they would never know that I didn't ride there...not proud of the thought...but I didn't do it...there was a part of the ride there that was over 6.5 miles uphill...Thank God for my Hydration Pack...was sweating like I have never sweat before...ewwww...I made it, stopped a few times for a breather but I got there...I got in my 1/2 mile swim at the lake and I a part of me was dreading the ride home...I knew that every hill I got to cruise down was going to be in front of me...made me think of one of my favorite songs...
The Climb by Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' but
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"you'll never reach it".
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin'
But I, I gotta keep tryin'.
Gotta keep my head held high.
There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.
The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on
The ride back....a few hills that wanted to break me, BUT I kept pushing, even had to push my bike up 2 of them (so steep I couldnt even pedal)...BUT I keep going...I finished to ride....For me it was a huge accomplishment, for me...I drove the ride after and was amazed at my own feat...tears streamed down my face and I realized something...I am an athlete! My dear friend Carol has been trying to tell me this for a long time, but it finally clicked...I know about time :)
The next week will be a test, a test against myself...to push harder, reach further and never stop...
I have been biking and swimming very hard, and I will admit my running is still a struggle for me, almost like I just freeze, I know i can do it, I have done it, but I just......freeze...
So this morning, a bump in the road....went for a run with my baby girl, not a good run, I was cranky and leg kept cramping up...I was not happy with me and my baby girl kept trying and trying to push me...but for some reason, I was my own worst enemy today...I was NOT happy with myself, what was my problem??
This is my problem...ME..I am scared to face myself, that person in the mirror, my biggest fan and my worst critic all wrapped into one...I am at the end of the line for the goal I set for myself and my fear of letting myself down has increased...I WONT LET IT....that "fluffy" girl is GONE...I won't break, I won't give up...I WILL reach for the stars!!!!!
I am very blessed to have my beautiful Lexie and so many great friends, when I feel like I am at the end of my rope they remind me that there is no such thing, there is always more rope....always.
One last thought.....This is one of my favorite quotes & today I need to read it, focus on it and apply it to myself....thought I would share with all of you....
To Achieve your Dreams Remember your ABC's.....
Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits.
Believe in yourself.
Consider things from every angle.
Don't give up and don't give in.
Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow may never come.
Family and friends are hidden treasures, seek them and enjoy their riches.
Give more than you planned to.
Hang on to your dreams.
Ignore those who try to discourage you.
Just do it.
Keep trying no matter how hard it is
Love yourself first and most.
Make it happen.
Never lie, cheat or steal….always strike a fair deal.
Open your eyes & see things as they really are.
Practice makes perfect.
Quitters never win & winners never quit.
Read, study and learn about everything important in your life.
Take control of your own destiny.
Understand yourself in order to better understand others.
Want it more than anything.
You are unique..nothing can replace YOU.
Zero in on your target and go for it.
I have come too far to ever look back...I will face me & face the world...watch out here I come!