Self Reflection

Monday, July 27, 2009

Thinking a couple years back that I can remember, I have always been around 170-180 lbs. I remember my visit to the doctor's office for my physical in August 2006. Among other things that she told me, she made a comment "You are a big woman". I did hear it and felt bad for myself, but those feelings never changed into actions. Now for my next annual physical, which was in August 2007, I dreaded going to see her and kept postponing any effort to call and make an appointment. Finally it was November 2007, and one day I gathered courage and set an appointment. During this visit, there was another wake up call, when my doctor pulled out a small diary from one of her drawers and was looking up the weight range based on age and/or height. She told me "You are obese", and that I had to lose about 20-25 lbs, then I'd be overweight. Hearing the word "obese" was like something pricked my heart. I felt very embarrassed and humiliated. I said to myself that I have to do something about this weight issue. I even felt that a fire was lit inside of me, but it was still very dim and I was far from putting my thoughts into action.

It was February 2008. And one morning, I received a sparkmail regarding a team challenge. I did recall signing up with sparkpeople in March 2007 after reading about the site in a local newspaper. But within a few days after signing up and sitting on my butt and reading some articles, the spark inside me had died. But I could not remember signing up for any team. This was my first blessing from sparkpeople on automatically putting me on a team. I followed up with the team leader and she was very very helpful in explaining to me the challenge and the rules. Since then I started my roller coaster ride, joining couple more teams and making new friends. Now participating in the challenges was so much fun and it felt like the pounds were starting to drop off while I was having all the fun with the games some great team leaders were planning for us. Having such great friends and great team leaders who dedicate their time and efforts to make difference in our lives, was my second blessing from sparkpeople.

I continued to read articles on fitness and nutrition. Thanks to the inspiring coaches we have on sparkpeople, and this was my third blessing. I kept educating myself and making wise choices towards a healthy lifestyle. To-date I have lost about 42 lbs. And some things I have enjoyed since - I was not reluctant to visit my doctor in August 2008. Infact she was shocked to see me. I shared this great site with her so she could share it with others in need. I have also enjoyed shopping for regular sizes vs plus ones. It is an awesome feeling to pick an outfit to try on and not be disappointed in the dressing room.

For last 6 months (since December 2008), I have been gaining and losing the same 2-5 pounds. But I am proud of myself that I have not gained back any of the 42 lbs previously lost. Maintain is far better than gain.

All in all, I have added Sparkpeople to the list of other blessings I have in my life.
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    Good for you Meena! I've been at a plateau for 7 months now, but I'd rather be here than gaining! I'm still not near my goal, but I'm not as heavy as I was - keeping over 40 lbs off as well. Keep up the great work - I know we'll make it!
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    3160 days ago
    I enjoyed your blog very much. It gave me room for thought. I have been in the same boat with you. I still have a very long way to go. I feel that if I can keep the goal in sight then I will make it. God gave us this body and we are responsible for it. I feel like I have let my whole family and friends down by letting myself get into the shape. Now that I have found Spark People I feel like I have a new start in life. So you keep up the good work and we will overcome.
    3161 days ago
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