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Thursday, July 23, 2009

...I feel like I am on this race and I am not anywhere near the finish line. The finish line seems so far down the road that it is not even in my mental mindset. July has been a really sucky month for me. My exercise has been off and I have been eating way too many comfort foods. The things that really get me down is when I see the Sparkpeople motivators and it seems like their weight loss went off without hitch and it seems for me that I can't seem to pass 260. In my mind, I feel that if I can just get to 250 I know that the next 50 will come but 250 feels like a million years from now.

I know it seems like I am having a pity party. I just want to let you know that this is really hard for me because I am MISS Dependable. I try to be positive for everyone else when I feel terrible about my weight loss program. There are days when I feel like a fraud...especially the days when I haven't eaten right...

Hi My name is Danielle and I think that I will be FAT forever.
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    Hang in there Dani! It's tough. I feel the same way about losing the next 10lbs. They are stubborn and seem to be what is holding me back mentally. I lost the first 20 so fast that it is hurting my motivation now. Sigh. Be strong and know that there are people rooting for you.

    Take care,
    3121 days ago

    Oh Dani...I know what you mean about feeling like a fraud. I used to feel that way in the ministry I lead. It was all about grace; I taught and motivated others often times when I had no grace within myself. The truth---the beautiful truth---is that your authenticity shines through, and you are a true motivator regardless of how flawed you are as a human. We aren't supposed to be perfect...as perfectionists, we seem to forget that sometimes. Your honest heart is amazing and truly full of grace! You motivate me just by showing up...which you never fail to do! So cut yourself a break...really! Love (& grace) to you Dearest!!!

    3126 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/26/2009 11:59:50 AM
    Thank you for your honesty on this blog. I was having the same feelings today about my weight loss. Like, WHAT'S UP??? But like DESTINIW6 stated, everyone started somewhere and even though it doesn't seem like they had it hard, they had their own personal struggles. I have to think about that. I cannot compare myself. I have to listen to own body and know when it's time to change it up. It could be stress or changing up/stepping up the exercise, praying, or just focusing on getting a workable nutrition plan....goal setting with a few small workable goals has helped me stay on track. It is discouraging to see that your Numba ain't movin'! I'm frustrated as well. But I cannot allow the demon to confuse me or trick me into thinking that this is it. This is where I will hover. IT IS NOT! So this is the real work - training our minds and getting emotionally and spiritually fit.

    You can do it. Pick up your tools and finish your "project," (that be you, Girl). It's going to be fabulous when you're DONE! For now, appreciate your progress and reward yourself.

    You are not alone.

    3158 days ago
    You will not be FAT all your life, I've been at the pity room and stay to long sometime. You can do this , remember slow it stays off and fast it will be back sooner. I understand and I'm here for YOU. emoticon You are not alone am always near call me.

    emoticon Miss J.
    3158 days ago
    Thank you ladies so much for your comments and deciding to read my blog..I really needed your words!
    3160 days ago
    You will NOT be fat forever as long as you keep making those healthy changes in your life and get them to stick, the lbs will go away with that. *HUGS* HANG IN THERE!!!! Don't think about the end -- think about every day making those healthy choices. This journey is enjoyable all along the way, because you will feel better and better each day as you get healthier.
    3160 days ago
    This is a journey and the Sparkpeople motivators have endured some of the same feelings that you are experiencing right now. In the long run by practicing a healthy lifestyle the weight will eventually come off. Also, you are not a fraud your motivation for someone else may go along way for them and may be just what they needed to hear. Even if you are down encouragement can play a part of you the giver and the receiver. We all have the tools to succeeed and I strongly believe that you can do it! emoticon emoticon
    3161 days ago
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