A Little Blue but then Yellow
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Today I woke up feeling a bit overwhelmed and blue. I couldn't decide what to do for my exercise today. Should I go to the YMCA and work out on the machines? Should I go for my 3 mile walk on my challenging road? Nothing sounded appealing. I decided instead that I would "treat" myself to a breakfast at our local bagel shop and read the morning newspaper. The heck with exercise. One day wasn't going to kill me.
I drove to my desired location and sat in front of the restaurant. Even though I was slightly hungry I knew my hunger wasn't for food. I didn't quite know where the emotions were coming from. I shed a few quiet tears in my car for the confusion I was feeling and hoped for some clarity.
After a few minutes of feeling sad and lost I decided to call the YMCA and find out what exercise classes were being offered in the next half hour. I had never done a class at the Y but what the heck. The lady told me about a class that sounded worth the trip so I headed that way. As I walked in my sadness started to lift. I entered the aerobic studio and waited for the class to start. It was a weight lifting class that was very challenging but doable. After 60 minutes of lunges and situps and weighlifting the class was finally over. I worked up quite a sweat and felt tired but marvelous afterwards. I was surprised how the decision to exercise lightened my mood and made me feel so clear headed.
I guess next time this happens I will allow myself a few moments to feel the feeling instead of eating it away. Through Spark People's education and support I am now finding ways to deal with life's unpleasantness and move through the pain or confusion. Trying to block it by eating serves no purpose other than making you feel worse. I went from Blue to Yellow in one morning and prefer the lighter color!