Wednesday, July 22, 2009
For the past however long Oprah has been on TV, I have always been trying to figure out why I eat. I have never had that "aha" lightbulb moment, when I finally know why I overeat. I don't think I am a stress eater. I don't think I am 'pushing' something down by eating. I had a great childhood, great parents, pretty good kids (the middle one was a bit of a handful, middle child syndrome..). But I am always trying to figure out why I do it. I have just come to the conclusion, I absolutely love food. I love the taste, I love the way it makes me feel, I just don't like the way it makes me look.
I feel as if I should have some other reason for overeating and I just can't figure it out.
At least when I quit smoking 20 years ago, I quit cold turkey, never had another drag of a cigarette. But with eating, you still have to eat!! I know everyone says you can still have the things you crave, just not so much or only once in a while, but with me, I think it's easier just to try not to eat the things I crave at all. Once I start, it is very hard for me to stop.
I just made my appt. with the dressmaker to alter my MOTB gown, so now I really have to step it up. I am trying for another 20 lbs by September 3/09 (that's the date for alterations), hopefully the dress is in by then, but will just try my best as the dress fits me now, and any weight I lose between now and then will just make me feel & look better.
I am going to try my darndest not to binge on Sunday this week also, this has been my weekly downfall, and I am getting darn tired of it. I lose weight all week and exercise every day, and then Sunday rolls around and I eat way more than I should, and then I spend Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday getting back to where I was the previous Saturday. Not this week, I have no more time to fool around, as the shower is coming up in 3 weeks, and I am quite pleased to say, the outfit I bought for it 6 week ago, is too big, so it's out shopping again tomorrow!!