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I never get that "aha" moment... I eat because I love food!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

For the past however long Oprah has been on TV, I have always been trying to figure out why I eat. I have never had that "aha" lightbulb moment, when I finally know why I overeat. I don't think I am a stress eater. I don't think I am 'pushing' something down by eating. I had a great childhood, great parents, pretty good kids (the middle one was a bit of a handful, middle child syndrome..). But I am always trying to figure out why I do it. I have just come to the conclusion, I absolutely love food. I love the taste, I love the way it makes me feel, I just don't like the way it makes me look.
I feel as if I should have some other reason for overeating and I just can't figure it out.

At least when I quit smoking 20 years ago, I quit cold turkey, never had another drag of a cigarette. But with eating, you still have to eat!! I know everyone says you can still have the things you crave, just not so much or only once in a while, but with me, I think it's easier just to try not to eat the things I crave at all. Once I start, it is very hard for me to stop.

I just made my appt. with the dressmaker to alter my MOTB gown, so now I really have to step it up. I am trying for another 20 lbs by September 3/09 (that's the date for alterations), hopefully the dress is in by then, but will just try my best as the dress fits me now, and any weight I lose between now and then will just make me feel & look better.

I am going to try my darndest not to binge on Sunday this week also, this has been my weekly downfall, and I am getting darn tired of it. I lose weight all week and exercise every day, and then Sunday rolls around and I eat way more than I should, and then I spend Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday getting back to where I was the previous Saturday. Not this week, I have no more time to fool around, as the shower is coming up in 3 weeks, and I am quite pleased to say, the outfit I bought for it 6 week ago, is too big, so it's out shopping again tomorrow!!
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  • 4CYNDI
    Wendy, Sometimes there is no hidden meaning. You are not stuffing nerves, or problems, or anything else down. Sometimes it is just a love of food. That is part of my problem. I love the textures, the smells, the tastes of it. So I often eat more than I should because I am enjoying myself so much. (I also eat because I'm bored, or angry, or sad or happy, excited etc. Food helps/ed me enjoy life. Or at least it used to.)

    I am so proud of your success. You have to go buy a new outfit because the one you bought and planned to wear is too big now. That is something to be proud of. Congratulations! I know with this type of dedication you can do this.

    One thing to ask yourself, is why you overdo on Sunday? Is it because you feel deprived during the week and feel entitled to a reward for good behavior? Or is it that Sundays are not as structured or busy as other days? Or ... well you get the drift. Something to think about.

    Live healthy, live strong!
    3008 days ago
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