Wednesday, July 22, 2009
ok, so yesterday i turned 62..not 39 like i tell everyone(who am i trying to kid?)..my day started out fine..i knew it was going to rain, no problem, my astrological sign is water..i moved my 2 planters out from under the eaves so mother nature could give them a drink of fresh rainwater..i took my cat, zoey, in my arms, took off my shoes and went out into the rain with her..she loved it and we both got soaked..this was the high point of my day.
i spent the whole day & evening alone in quiet comtemplation, meditation & (yes) prayer, feeling very meloncholy & alone..
i started to think about the positives & negatives in my life and had an epithany..all in all, i'm pretty lucky..sure, i spend most of my time in a wheelchair in my cute, little apartment, and get out only to doctor's appointments, but, i can "go on-line" at any time and "talk" to a bunch of folks who've become as important to me as my own flesh & blood...sparkpeople & facebook have become my main(read ONLY) social outlet..
with the support of my spark family, i've lost a total of 190 pounds!..my hip doesn't ache as much as it used to, and my knees creak less, i can even walk a few steps further then i could last year when i was a youngster of 61..
by the time the evening came, i had read & reread the birthday greetings from my on-line family and i was feeling very loved, happy & content..
finally, the light came on....i'm not only wiser...i'm happier!