Every time I say I am going to lose the weight. I am going to do this by eating right, exercising and changing some of my life habits. To no avail, first I get hyped up and do a few crunches and exercises, I think I am eating right but then go back to my old ways. I truly need help. Everything in my life is changing for the better. I am a Army Veteran who was addicted to drugs and abused by someone I thought loved me. Went through a few rehabs, 5 to be exact, but I finally got it together. I have a lot of support from my counselor, my shrink (hate to call her that, but I am too lazy to get up and get the dictionary for the correct spelling of psychiatrist- hey maybe I did spell it right), family and friends. Anyhow, I gained a lot of weight after living the good life, LOL. I am currently preparing to go to school for Social Work, Women helping Women is my calling. I want to give back what was given to me, HELP. I have started to change my image. After wearing my hair in dreadlocks for 12 (twelve) years I decided to comb them out, what a feat, took me 4 to 5 days total. It was doable and I did it. My hair is now to my shoulders and I think it looks nice, all I have to do is the work to keep it up. My next thing is changing my body, I weigh 200 plus lbs. and want to lose at least 50lbs. I joined Sparkpeople with the best intentions but I lost interest in exercising, it's hard to do between preparing to go to school but I know I can do it, I just need MOTIVATION.