Thursday, July 02, 2009
Ah, day three and still hanging in there with the journaling and tracking my exercise. But I still feel like a big lumbering beast. I didn't even feel this out of shape when I weighed 12 pounds more. I know that with perseverance it will get better, but man oh man why do I keep losing the weight and getting in some kind of functioning shape only to slide down into the cravasse again.
This is absolutely my lowest moment. Right now I couldn't even do that trip to Barcelona, where I just walked around. It would be too hard. How in the world does this happen? I've got to realize that my age now has a lot to do with it. The recovery time is not there and it's taking longer to get back into shape. The bottom line, do I want to live an active life or not. I do believe I want that, but now my daily actions have to show that.