Okay. Seriously, I don't know why I can't seem to just get it together and maintain my healthy habits. I was doing splendidly. I had extreme will power and self control...and then we had my hubby's 25th birthday party and it was all down hill from there. For the last month I have put anything and everything in my mouth...worst of all, pizza. We have had so much pizza the last few weeks, I was half expecting to wake up one morning and find that my eyes had turned into pepperonies and my hair into mozzeralla cheese. It hasn't thank goodness but it has definitely transformed the scale. I got on the scale yesterday morning for the first time in a while...and I think that's exactly what I needed. It read the heaviest number of my life and I almost threw up. So...I am bound and determined this time. I can't let myself go anymore. Yesterday was a nice healthy day. I made a nice, quick, easy dinner last night that didn't go over 400 calories and then I strapped on my iPod and went walking while hubby trailed beside me on his bike. He hurt his foot a few weeks ago and still can't really walk on it but pedalling doesn't bother him. I walked a good 20 minutes I think and then came home and did some crunches. The ultimate plan is to get up @ 5:30 each morning and walk for 30 minutes too but I didn't get that done this morning b/c we got sucked into some TV shows last night that kept us up late. Silly Bachelorette and Here Come the Newlyweds...geesh. But I will be up @ 5:30 tomorrow. You can count on it. I'll definitely walk again tonight and probably do some Jillian Michaels workouts on the Wii. I'm stepping up the exercise and seriously toning down the food intake...only eating when I'm hungry. I'm cutting out soda...again. And I'm GOING to do it this time. My mom is taking me on a little shopping spree for my birthday in August...mostly for new clothes for my internship but I would LOVE to go down a size by then. And I think I can do it...I KNOW I can.

I haven't failed. Failing only happens when you don't get up after you've fallen. But I'm getting up...and I'm pumped. My excitement is back and I'm ready to do this!