Monday, June 29, 2009
I log in, I earn points, I was feeling pretty darn good about myself and my healthy habits, I try to support others on their journey and lord knows so many support me on mine. I'm not mad, I'm not depressed, I'm just coming to the conclusion that things aren't going to change. The weight hasn't budged (of course to know for sure that would require me to get on the scale and I'm just not going to do that right now) but I know my clothes aren't looser. I quickly glance in the mirror to know enough that my body hasn't slimmed down. I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong, doing right, doing neutral - I'm just so damn embarrassed by my appearance, I'm getting to the point of just hiding. It's so frustrating, because everyone says 'you can do it' - but clearly, I'm not doing it.
Not sure I can pull this off, not sure where to turn or what to do next.