Monday, June 29, 2009
* disclaimer : forgive any typos, I'm really tired!
So I sit here reflecting after the first official week of being on my program..I have gone to my University Rec Center and hired a nutritionist and a personal trainer (it was super affordable!!). I've enrolled in a Western African dance class and been to every class- and it has kicked my butt and unfortunately triggered my injuries to flare up a bit. However, depsite that I'm motivated, my 1st training session went well! I meet my nutritionist for the first time this Tuesday with my 2nd training session to follow, then off to work-yay!...I realized that 25lbs by 25th bday was a novel and sincerely motivating idea, but with my thyriod issues lately and other pesky health concerns I'll be glad with whatever I lose by then, as long as I get there or as that Miley Cyrus song ( I like the song, her not so much..lol) "it's not how fast I get there or whats on the other side, its the climb". I'm trying to focus on my dad to day progress & not on the "I'm gonna be a super bad (hot) chic by graduation" big picture or that'll get me anxious and off track....So the foodtracking is a bit much...but i'm getting better with other healthy habits...I went out dancing with some friends last night ( yay for the MJ tribute and dancing!!..boo for feeling unattractive - I realized it doesn't matter club dudes are not where's its at - so a number or a holla, doesn't measure my self worth, but it's annoying because I used to get hit on often and boo for comparing myself to those girls with their fashion forwardness, attractive figures but silly young attitudes- i'm 24 two other girls were 23 & 26 and understood my perspective, majority of them were 21) What doesnt help, but does at the same time is that the guy I'm seeing is so focused on me becoming this bad chic ( hottie) that it can get a bit upsetting, but it just fuels my desire to get a figure that actually toner and more fit than the friends I compared myself to...I'm adamant about looking hot by the end of all of this..but honestly I'm moreso looking forward to the upped confidence and the better health I'll have...well ..I'm gonna keep chugging along...I think I can, I can can!..lol...Choochoo! Next stop 5Points [ 5 lbs weight loss!] ( a real train stop in Atlanta)..lol...Choo! Chooo!