Saturday, June 20, 2009
OK, when I started on Spark, I decided that I would only post my weight as it decreased....so there would be days and days where I would not change it. But on those days when the scale was my friend, I jumped at the opportunity to post the lower number! And for awhile that worked....but then health issues caused me to work out less, or at a lesser intensity, and the numbers on the scale started rising.....yet on Spark, the number miraculously remained the same.
But it is time for a change, time to be honest with myself and with my friends here. No, I am not still at 159+ pounds, this morning I stepped on the scale and was actually HAPPY to see it read 165.....as it had been as high as 175, practically the weight that I was when I started. Though I see 165 as a form of failure, I've decided to "speak the truth" and be honest with myself. Yes, I did put on weight, no, I am not happy about it, but I no longer want to hide behind the erroneous 159 number......I vow to update at least weekly, whether high or low, it will be the truth!
Will this help my resolve? I do not know. But I do know that if I am honest with myself, and admit my short comings, I will be more patient with others who are fighting the same battle, and not feel like such a hypocrit!