Because he doesn't make me ME...
Monday, June 15, 2009
I didn't think my ex-husband deserved top spot on the front of my Sparkpage anymore, so I am moving my little story of the last year of my life here to my blog. I know most people who have come to my page have read it, probably like WHAT!?!?! Yes...that is what happened...yes, shocked me too. But I am over it, moved on, got the t-shirt, and am now using it as a dust rag! BUT, it is still MY story. So, I'll move it here where it will stay, and one day be moved down the list of my blogs. And actually, will be moved down as soon as I post this next one! So...here it goes!
In December 2007, while living in El Paso, Texas my children and I had just sent my husband who is in the Army away to be stationed in Saudi Arabia for two whole years. In January 2008 I received divorce papers in the mail. This is when I felt my whole world fall apart. How was I supposed to keep things together for my children, when inside I was slowly dying? I still had to get up everyday and go to work, go to school, and take care of my children, all while dealing with this divorce...all alone. It took a toll on me and already overweight, I put on an additional 30 lbs. on top of the 220 I was already carrying around!
As time went on and I accepted what was to come, I stopped feeling sorry for myself, and my theme song went from Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys to Just Fine by Mary J. Blige. In July, I quit my job, packed up my house, and my children and I moved back home to Killeen, Texas where I grew up. The first few months back were some of the hardest that I had to deal with, and it was a slow process, but I made it through. My divorce was finalized December 2008, I turned 30 on February 19th of this year, and I am learning to love life to the fullest. I'm happier than I have ever been and more motivated than ever. But I knew to be truly happy and to put the past behind me, I had to let go of not only the emotional baggage of the past 10 years, but the physical baggage as well! It was definitely time for a change, time for Tamika to shine!