Tuesday, June 09, 2009
This last month has been a complete bust diet-wise. After the retreat weekend I can't seem to get back on track with my eating. I have had a lot of stress at home and at work - and I'm an emotional eater. Exercise is still a problem for me except when I can get in the pool at the apartment complex, but with the rain that hasn't happened as often as I'd hoped.
I had a relapse last week with my left knee and today the doctor told me I need to have an arthroscopy, which will require 2-4 weeks off work. I do not have that much vacation time for a whole year, let alone left for this year. This is something I am going to have to plan for financially and then get my boss to agree to let me be off for that length of time.
I start the day off good and sometimes make it through lunch but by mid-afternoon, even with a healthy snack packed, I'm having lots of cravings for the wrong types of food. I haven't had more than a sip of water a day for weeks.
I haven't been on the scales in weeks and frankly I'm afraid to step on them to see what damage I've done to myself.
I won't give up - one day at a time - one meal at a time - one hour at a time - I'll keep trying until I get it right.