I am feeling like it is just a dream.........

Monday, June 08, 2009

WE all go through different highs and lows in our lives, I love to read about all of the people that have been successful with their weight loss. I go along so good for awhile, and I want this so badly, but then I hit a brick wall!!!! I do always do seem to get back on board again, and I think that is what is different this time with me getting healthy, and am not giving up! It's hard to not feel angry at times about all of the lost time being fat, and slipping off of my program, because it would come quicker if I would stay the course!!! It gets old losing the same 10-15 lbs over and over.... but I am continually going down at the Doctors office, that is one good thing!!! I asked a fellow Sparker once about what she felt about the 300 lb plus person she was...."she said, she loves her, and it's a reminder of where she was at, and incentive to stay where is is". I want to burn all of my "fat" pictures from the last 20 years, I hope to one day accept the person I let myself become, and love her too, maybe that is the key to being able to change!!! I love that there are so many people who can understand what I feel, and not judge me. This is a great place to vent, and come to grips with ourselves. That is needed to change! This picture is another one of my moments of, wow, look at what I have become......
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    I see a person surrounded by love....Sweet Sister!
    3196 days ago
  • VICKI103
    I'm familiar with that brick wall and I just keep trucking along and refuse to give up. I don't love the body of the person I once was but the soul is the same and I'm thankful for that.
    3207 days ago
    Jill - I'm hoping that seeing the brick wall in the road ahead will make it easier for you to go around it (or through it). And it sounds like you've figured out a big piece of it - working at being healthy instead of just thin. ("just" thin - listen to me!). As for your picture - you look like a happy, sparkling woman surrounded by friends/family. How lucky we are to have you here!
    3207 days ago
    I agree with your friend. And don't lose or destroy those pictures. They will be a reminder of that woman you were! You can get this done! emoticon
    3207 days ago
    Jill, you are so right!! emoticon for posting this wonderful blog, YOU ARE DA BOMB GIRL emoticon I miss ya, I'll be back to sparking soon......
    3207 days ago
  • LESIA2478
    Thank you for your words they mean alot to me. I don't know if I can be any help to you. I so know how you feel to. I don't know how I don't see that brick wall headed my way. I seem to hit it every time, and it throws my off my path. It is always hard to find my way back to the right path, but I always find it. I know you will to.
    3207 days ago
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