Gains and losses...
Saturday, June 06, 2009
So first, sadly my visit to Two-Ville was extremely short-lived. I'm not sure if it was the scale, if I was right on the edge between 300 and 299.9, or what - but my weight is back up. I guess on the plus side it's only the second real 'gain' I've had since December. It's also been SLOWLY creeping back down - I'm hovering at about 301.2 right now. Hoping that will either stay stead or slip down just a TAD more between now and Tuesday.
I've got to say I've handled it fairly well. I was definitely bummed when that 2 went away and I had to move the slider up to 300, but I reminded myself of the many reasons that could be the case. So I took that feeling and just sort of turned it into determination during my workouts. I've upped my speeds on the treadmill (Cardio Coach V1, base speed 3.2 and top speed of 5.0), my times on the elliptical (CardioCoach V2, base resistance about 5 and top about 12) to about 15 minutes and have been struggling through my strength training exercises. I've been doing my best to drink as much water as possible.
Unfortunately that determination hasn't leaked into my eating - if anything, they've fallen into the 'bad' zones more often than not lately. I'm struggling to get them back under control - mostly trying to bring down the carb and sodium levels and attempting to eat more frequently. It just hasn't been easy. I'm really going to have to think about our grocery list next week - I've got to find a way out of this eating 'slump'.
Now, in better news - I finally fit comfortably into ALL of my size 26 pants and can actually zip up the 24's. They're still way too tight to wear, but it doesn't feel like that will last very long. I've also got my first pair of 'goal' jeans. Yes, they're a 22 - but that would put me back to the size I was when I met my husband three years ago. From there, my goal is to get down to a 16/18 and be the smallest bridesmaid at my friend's wedding in March.
With the slowdown of my weight loss, I totally realize that may NOT happen, but then again - I have NO clue what weight I'd need to be to be an 18. I know when I was a 22 I was probably about 270 or so. That means that conceivably I could hit an 18 around 250, which may be possible by then. I'm not going to set that one in stone until I get below 300 though. A lot will depend on how long it takes me to get back there and STAY there.
Anyway, that's what's been going on in my world. I've been feeling like a bit of a failure (weight gain and bad eating), but at the same time a winner (bumped up workouts and smaller jeans!).