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Thursday Morning

Thursday, June 04, 2009

All right then. No sense in making myself totally miserable. Its a new day and all that. I wouldn't naturally be thing this way, but all the kind people who left comments on my blog can be very persuasive. :)
So then, I don't feel totally confident, but I do feel ... moderately confident. I can get past this hump. I'm going to set myself a small streak of four days. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, I will stay focused, eat carefully, and work out consistently. That will maybe help me get my momentum back.
And now - ta da - I want to flesh out a hypothesis I've got. Rambling Ahead.
I'm thinking that I may have lost my sense of self. I wonder about the connection between self image and weight gain. Formerly, I always felt in control of my life and how people perceive me. Since I've moved, and some other stuff has happened, I've felt less in control of my identity. I don't know how people perceive me, and I don't like that I can't control it anymore.
I do know that I see myself as chubby, frizzy, without willpower, frumpy.
As a frumpy teacher, it doesn't matter what I eat or what I look like.
Since I'm no longer a student, I'm no longer experimenting or growing. (Oof - that one hit home).
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  • v RAYLINSTEPHENS
    It doesn't matter how others perceive you.

    It only matters how you feel about yourself.

    You have value. You have worth. You must believe in yourself.

    You can do this, One day at a time.

    Hugs,
    Linda
    2576 days ago
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