Thursday, June 04, 2009
All right then. No sense in making myself totally miserable. Its a new day and all that. I wouldn't naturally be thing this way, but all the kind people who left comments on my blog can be very persuasive. :)
So then, I don't feel totally confident, but I do feel ... moderately confident. I can get past this hump. I'm going to set myself a small streak of four days. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, I will stay focused, eat carefully, and work out consistently. That will maybe help me get my momentum back.
And now - ta da - I want to flesh out a hypothesis I've got. Rambling Ahead.
I'm thinking that I may have lost my sense of self. I wonder about the connection between self image and weight gain. Formerly, I always felt in control of my life and how people perceive me. Since I've moved, and some other stuff has happened, I've felt less in control of my identity. I don't know how people perceive me, and I don't like that I can't control it anymore.
I do know that I see myself as chubby, frizzy, without willpower, frumpy.
As a frumpy teacher, it doesn't matter what I eat or what I look like.
Since I'm no longer a student, I'm no longer experimenting or growing. (Oof - that one hit home).