Saturday, May 30, 2009
I was counting the pounds to one of my goals (loss of 20 pounds)... and this week I gained.. 1.6 pounds!! Agh!.. I am not sure what that means. Loss of motivation?? Over eating.. or the constant thought in my head, I'm a failure.
I feel so angry because it not only with the weight loss I am failing in, but I am messing in up in class, my workout schedule, and being a good daughter. I would like to do so much more.. but truly, I still feel extremely sad about loosing my job.. and that was more than a month ago!!... Does work define you?? For me it did.. I would have done anything to support the museum's mission.. and in a heart beat, I was let go.
Its so easy to make excuses. I feel them slowing entering my thoughts and making me feel numb, but its not good. I need to face the facts.
Till next week..