Never give up

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Today I was thinking about all the times I've failed at weight loss. I would lose 10 pounds and gain 20 back. I would exercise religiously for weeks and miss a day. Then I felt like I had messed everything up, so I stopped exercising at all. I would mess up a low carb diet with a cookie binge and give up completely. I can't understand why I'm programmed like this. It's all or nothing. Perfection or complete failure. I was never able to forgive my mistakes no matter how small. I have spent years on the same treadmill and the scenery is getting old.
After 39 years I'm finally learning to cut myself some slack. I will never be perfect. I will always have things about myself that I'm not crazy about. If I weren't fat then I would just pick something else out to fixate on. I think I've come to a point where I'm not as afraid to be me. There are things I can pick out about myself that I actually like. I'm learning to forgive the imperfections in myself like I can in others. Slowly I am beginning to like me, and that is a first.
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  • NEWSUE45
    Not only are we changing ourselves physically but also mentally. I too am a perfectionist and I am my worst critic. That is why I love SP, I find people who go through the same things that I struggle with and it makes me feel less alone. I am glad you are recognizing some of your behaviors that have held you back Beth, I know your blogs help me realize somethings about myself too!!

    3008 days ago
    I am the SAME exact way!
    It is great you are finally starting to Love yourself!
    You are a WONDERFUL person!
    I find myself feeling like what's the use, as the scale stopped moving on me!
    I was doing good, but this week....
    I tend to think the same mentality why bother i've screwed up already...
    I am so happy for you!
    I am doing a goal chart today, where i want to be in a month, 2 mo, 6mo and a year.
    Not just weight, but other healthy lifestyle goals, i am hoping that will help my slump!
    Have a GREAT week my friend!!
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    3008 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    I'm a Libra and my procrastination problem comes from that WANT to be perfect about everything, which is just TOO big an obstacle to get over.
    3008 days ago
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