OK, I don't know what got into me but it started with a few tortilla chips on Sunday but ended up with being off the track full-blown on Monday. I had totally NO CONTROL! I not only ate things I knew were not healthy but continued to eat when I was clearly NOT HUNGRY and indeed was full. AUGHHHHHHHH!
Maybe confessing will help me deal with today's struggle . . .
Yesterday was Memorial Day...and like many others, I went to a barbecue lunch. A little chilly outside so it was held inside and was complete with grilled hot dogs and chicken marinated in a combination of Teriyaki and Italian dressing. Yes, it was different but surprisingly tasty! Anyway, I chose the chicken and removed the skin. I just took about a spoon of potato salad and a couple of spoons of three-bean salad. I did have a few crackers and baked spinach dip and I gave in to the chocolate cake (scraped off the frosting). I figured I'd adjust my dinner choices to accommodate the extra calories.
When I got home, I really wasn't hungry and took my dog out. Stopping at some neighbors' house, they offered me a plate of their afternoon picnic to take home for dinner. I accepted it because they said they said they had had ribs (I do like barbecue ribs and hadn't had any for some time). I also accepted a diet coke.
Removing the foil when I got home, I discovered a half slab of pork ribs, a chicken breast, a medium ear of corn, a healthy portion of homemade barbecue beans and a large baked potato. Unfortunately, I don't know what happened to me, but it was as if a dam opened. I had no resistance and ate the ribs, corn, half a potato. and part of the beans.
I also drank the first can of diet coke and then drank another I had sitting in the refrigerator but hadn't touched in awhile.
Not two hours later, I decided that since I had blown it anyway, I'll go all the way and ate scrambled eggs and cheese (4 eggs, 2 slices of American cheese and a large sprinkling of asiago, parmesiano and romano shredded cheese. With this I had 2 slices of high fiber flax bread.
What happened? Why was yesterday so different? I don't know!
In the past, when I've binged, I just binged and didn't think about it and just gave in to the cravings. But since I joined SP, I've been different. My protein and fiber count has increased and my meals are more balanced. I don't think about food as much, feel satisfied and I have been able to deal with cravings before they became so intense. Also, with the help of the nutrition tracker, I have been able to make adjustments to stay within my daily goals.
So what happened yesterday??? Not sure but I know I gave in to the "idea" of food... hunger had nothing to do with it. Has this ever happened to you?
Follow-up??? It's 3pm today, Tuesday, and I have stayed on track with food although I am behind on my water intake (only 2 cups so far) so I need. I am feeling stronger compulsions to have a grilled cheese sandwich but I know I am not hungry. So, I will drink some water and get busy doing some housecleaning.