Mourning a loss...
Friday, May 22, 2009
Excuse me while I mourn.
It just seemed like yesterday that the three of us were together. There was never a time when she wasn't with you, and the two of you weren't with me. It was almost as though we were permanently attached from birth. Whenever people saw me, they saw you two as well. I used to think that I shined brighter whenever the three of us went out. Whenever people would stare, I felt good, because I knew that it was because WE made them smile. Now, it's time that I do it on my own. Those closest to me knew that me and my girls were going to be together to the end...but that all changed a short time ago.
I had to do something about my weight, and that meant letting you two go. Though it was hard to come to the realization that my girls and I would never be the way we were before, sometimes change is a good thing. So I say to you...my Boobs...The Girls...MY Girls...the DD Twins...Goodbye!!! I will miss the 30 years (well...minus the 12 it took for you to finally grow) we had together. We had lots of fun. Sorry it had to end this way, but breastfeeding two babies for a year each, and then losing this weight meant I had to lose you too. Yes, you aren't as pretty as you used to be, but that's ok. We will still get to "hang out"...literally, and you will NEVER be replaced...trust me on that. I mean...it's nothing a good water bra can't fix!!! I'm sorry, but it's more important for me to be healthy these days. As I hit the 40 lbs. lost mark, never to be found again, if you see them when you are out there in gone land...say a little "Hey" for me. I don't miss them, but boy were we all a big ole ball of fun...LITERALLY!!!!!