School and career ambivalence
Monday, May 18, 2009
After weeks of procrastinating, I'm finally getting organized for my summer classes which start this week as well as working on my grad school application. It's been hard to get motivated on either as I'm wondering what is going to happen with my industry; I'm seeing positions being posted with salaries in the $15-20/hour range. Kinda takes away the incentive to pay $20K for a degree...
However I had a really good long talk with a friend last week about work and school. She was able to empathize with my ambivalence about continuing with classes for a degree in a profession that I'm not sure I want to stay in. She pointed out that it's very hard to get motivated to pay the money and do the work for school when one can't really see a clear attainment of goals at the end. But, she also reminded me that these are very abnormal times, and I'm figuring that the technical degree is something I will likely build on as I figure out what direction I want my career to take. I may not continue as a straight developer, but if I want to continue to use my technical skills in any capacity then I'm going to need to have a technical degree.
I'm also starting to "come out of the closet" about my confusion about career focus and am getting some good support. I've been brainstorming with a few people about how to get some information without paying $80/hour for career counseling. (Funny aside: one helpful friend pointed out that if I had the $80/hour I'd probably already be working and wouldn't need the counseling!) It's feeling better to admit that I don't *really* know what direction I want to go in. A little scary too of course, but that's to be expected; it's always scary when you step off into the unknown.
So no great insights or clarity here, just a little bit more honesty about where I'm at about work and school.