Wednesday, May 13, 2009
It started with my weekend where I gave in to my emotional eating and has been bad for me through today. I just want to eat. Not cause I'm hungry (and I know I'm not hungry), but because I'm depressed or angry or bored or tired or............ It is so frustrating and I feel so yucky after I give in and eat. Both mentally and physically. My last blog was posted April 1st and it's now the middle of May. My mood has been low most of this time. I think that is why I'm having so much trouble with my willpower. I don't have anything left in me to battle my emotional eating cause I've been battling my emotions for a month and a half or more. I've been putting off going to the Dr. but I think I'm going to have to make an appt and see if my medicine needs adjusted. It might just be the added stress I have right now. Hubby is laid off, youngest son is graduating from high school in a couple weeks and then headed off for boot camp with the army, my youngest daughter and grandson had to move back in with us for a bit because she split up with her boyfriend and he is being a real jerk, and I am having alot of pain in my knees again so it's getting harder and harder to exercise. Could this be why I'm struggling so much right now? I'm sure it has alot to do with it but most of these things I have absolutely no control over so I'm not sure what I can do to cope. Someone suggested journaling and I know that has helped me in the past so between my blogs and journaling, hopefully something will come to me.