Wednesday, May 13, 2009
1 week before the Boston Marathon (which I finished in 5:44), I lost my job. I have a sales job at the gym with a significant (huge) pay cut. I am very stressed, not happy, panicing over what the next month brings if I don't do enough sales to pay my bills. The people at my new job are nice and helping me as much as they can.
I have gained 7 pounds in since May 1st due to not being able to workout, stress, and basically emotional eating. I hate the way I feel, I hate stressing over work, I hate that I gained weight, and I hate that I can't get out and run like I want.
I am going to start running at night when I get off. It meant doing cardio at 9pm last night, but I got to watch biggest loser. I will get up and run in the mornings when my schedule allows. My fear is that I need to be in the gym making sales so that I can pay my bills. Running, unfortunately, has fallen secondary. That makes me unhappy too.
I'm not happy with life right now, and that makes everything else worse. I am the one that needs a support team now.