Wednesday, May 06, 2009
I've been on SparkPeople since 2006, using it for a few months at a time before forgetting about it and gaining more weight, then going back on, etc, etc. But this time I've been doing a great job keeping track of the foods I've eaten and exercises I've done. I'm really proud of myself :)
But I'm really surprised about something. I thought my biggest challenge was going to be keeping up with exercising and working out. I thought that was going to be the one thing that would slow me down. But it's not.
I can't get myself to eat enough calories. I eat enough food during the day, probably more than I should, since I'm always hungry, so I just keep eating, but somehow I can't get my calories to 1200. Only the past two or three days have I been able to get over 1000. Usually it's between 650 and 950. How is that possible?? This is such a ridiculous problem. I know I'm eating enough, so how come it's so low?? I know that putting my foods into the Nutrition Tracker isn't exact, so it's probably a little off, but I doubt it's 300 calories off. In theory it sounds so good, to be eating so few calories, but it's not. I know I'm hurting my body by doing this, but I can't help it. I eat enough fruits and vegetables, carbs, protein, fats, calcium, etc, but my calories are too low. I hate how I have to eat MORE so that I can lose weight. It sounds crazy. But I really want to lose weight, and I know I won't unless I get my calorie level up to where it needs to be, at least 1200. I can do this!
Wish me luck!!