Monday, May 04, 2009
I've spent some time reflecting on my behaviors the last couple of weeks. I've got an analogy....or is it a metaphor......or a similie......not an English teacher but I know it's one of those. Anyways, here it is.
So the weather is bad outside. It's snowing and the roads are icy. The news channels say not to go out, stay home but you've got some place to go and you think you can handle it. So against better judgement, out you go. A few times, your car starts to slip and slide but you correct for it. But then, up the road, you see a big icy patch. You slow down thinking "what should I do? I should probably turn around and go back home......Nahh, I can handle it" Then WHAM! you hit that icy patch and spin out of control and wreck.
That's been me the last couple of weeks. I slip a little, maybe didn't eat so great or didn't exercise, but I correct for it the next meal or the next day. I could feel myself falling off the wagon but kept thinking, I'll get it together. And then it was TAKS week and there were Ding Dongs on the teachers lounge. That was all it took. The rest of the week last week was gone.
I caught myself falling back into a familiar realm of thinking that "maybe I'm just a fat person and I need to just accept it and start enjoying life". I stopped myself. That's a load of crap! That's the lazy part of me making up an excuse to not do the hard work.
But I'm picking myself back up again. I've started the Sweat Suit to Swim Suit Bootcamp. While I'm disappointed that I'm having to start over again, I'm also proud of myself for starting over again. Hopefully, this is the last time I have to pick myself up.