Sunday, May 03, 2009
I know i havn't been the most diligent blogger but im trying to pick up where i left off. A little more than a week ago i was dealt the biggest blow of my life. I was told that my father passed sometime that morning. now i know it doesnt' quite relate to a food and fitness rehab blog but i just wanted to explain as to why i havn't been able to post these past 2 weeks. While dealing with the shock and trying to wrap my head around the fact that my father, who was the physical image for fitness for someone his age, my eating habits and exercise were the last on my mind. For those 7 days while at my hometown the lord, my family, friends, and food became my comfort. even still i can't believe it's true. sometimes i forget and think it was just a bad day dream. them something reminds me of him and it comes back to hit my like a mack truck. what's the hardest is being away from my immediate family right now. now being able to comfort my little sister or to talk with my mom about it face to face. but i know i have to keep going. i come back to nc with a ton of work to do but i know he would want me to "get my lesson" as he used to say. i've slowly gotten back to eating right and not used food to cope with the hurt. I exercise to make myself feel better and get my mind off of things. In that regard i've decided to start over in my p90x program. im going to switch from the p90x CLASSIC to the p90x LEAN. It's less weight lifting and more cardio for more weight loss and building of lean muscle mass. Took a swing at it on friday and got off track on saturday so just gonna start over on monday so my boyfriend and i can start together and motivate each other.
well that's about all i can write today. i know im not including a diet log and after this week (finals week....aka HELL WEEK) the posts will be more frequent and will include diet logs. thanks for reading and continue on your rehab journeys