Sunday, May 03, 2009
Good morning Sparkers, Hope everyone is doing well. It has been a while for me since I checked in. The reason is I JUST PLAIN FELL OFF THE WAGON!! I put on most of the weight that I had lost and weighed in at 285 on April 10th.
I am sad to say that I had to spend a few days getting over the shame, guilt and regret that I was feeling but I did get over it and started again on my birthday April 19th...slowly... but I AM picking up steam, energy, strength and determination.
I knew this was going to be one of the hardest journeys I have ever taken but I am willing to be in it for life and continue trying to just get it right! It's funny the hardest thing for me was weighing in and starting my ticker over but I'm glad I did. So far I have dropped 12.5 pounds since April 19th and I am praying for the strength to just keep going.
I am creating short term goals for myself this time and hoping that it may keep me encouraged and focused a little better this time. Looking at my ultimate goal and realizing I still had soooo much weight to lose was totally counteractive for my food obsessed brain, so doing it a little differently this time. Hope it works.