It's All About ME
Friday, May 01, 2009
It hasnít been an easy journey. At my heaviest, I weighed 235 pounds. I was on steroids for RA and I was in a deep depression. Luckily, I pulled myself out of that funk. When I got off the steroids and got a great job, the weight started coming off. Two years ago, I was exercising but I kept eating the wrong foods. I was starting to creep back up to 200 pounds. Thatís when I decided that I need to make some changes in my life.
I have a chronic illness that may cripple me one day, but I decided that I needed to start exercising to make sure that I can stay active my entire life. I used to have to walk with a cane but with the help of medication and exercise, I can go up three flights of steps without any trouble. I walked up a hill yesterday that three years ago, I couldnít make it up the hill. That showed me that I have made progress.
I have made little changes that have added up to a lot. I have quit, for the most part, sugar sodas. I drink more water that I ever have in my life. I take the stairs all the time. For my morning and afternoon breaks, I walk around. I have lowered my portions and make healthier choices. Even with my morning coffee, I have it made with nonfat milk.
These things didnít happen overnight. It takes time. I will confess that I do not deprive myself of anything. I still have ice cream, cookies, brownies and all the ďforbidden foodsĒ but I donít look at them in that way anymore. I could sit down and eat most of a half gallon of ice cream or have an entire bag of cookies without blinking. Now I will have a cookie or a small portion of ice cream.
I really couldnít tell you how much I weigh at this moment. I donít own a scale, but I can see the difference in my body. My jeans are hanging off me. I swim in my shirts. I have gone from a size 20 down to a size 12 and today I am going to buy a pair of size 10 jeans. This hasnít happened overnight and there have been several stumbles but I am not on a ďdietĒ I have made a lifestyle change.