Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Well, after falling off the wagon for a short time and then posting triumphantly about being back, I went SERIOUSLY off the wagon. I have now had over three weeks of bad eating/bingeing.
I haven't weighed myself. I'll do that tomorrow or Friday. Probably Friday. Then I can see how much I've gained. I think it's over 5 lbs. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if I am back in the 180's. Sigh. I feel huge and bloated.
I have been tracking for two days, and although yesterday was another bad eating day (2200 cals) at least I tracked it. I got myself into a state of not wanting to be bothered with tracking, and that leads me to eat way over where I should be. All because tracking was "too hard." And you'd think I would have learned that lesson previously and just kept tracking. At least with tracking it reins you in quicker with the food intake because you SEE the damage you are doing. I must remember that even if tracking feels a little bit like work sometimes, it is FAR less work than trying to lose the weight again if I go off the rails. And it is far better to track than to remain overweight. I must get back to it as being part of the routine.
Oh well, today is another day. I will continue trying to claw my way back to doing this right so I can start losing weight again.