What a difference 18 months makes!
18 months ago in search of the next wonder weight loss product I found Sparks. What the heck I jumped on board after all I had tried just about everything there was on the market.
Not giving it much thought at first, ok I couldn't give it much thought I could not log back on because I forgot my password, I did how ever start to read the emails that were sent out. After about a mouth of that I decided I needed to take a better look at this, and maybe it would be different.
In the mean time I had developed a roll of film from a friend’s party and there it was the picture of my backside that dropped me to me knees. It was the eye opener that I needed to find a way and take control of my life. I can say I didn't know I had gotten that big and truly I didn't know because my scale could not weigh me past 300 pounds.
To see the picture there in front of my face was a feeling to this day that I can’t explain. How had I let my life get that out of control that I had done this to myself? None of that mattered anymore what did matter was how was I going to change it.
Once again that Sparks web site that I had found, maybe they would have some suggestions. Oh man did they have suggestions! I found out stuff that at the age of 41 I thought I knew, I was so wrong and so off base. Who knew you could eat food and be on a diet?
The road that I have walked in the past 18 months has not always been an easy one. I have fallen on my face and picked myself back up and when I could not do it on my own, my family and friends here on sparks lent me a helping hand. I fell off the wagon and the wagon ran my butt over. It took me a few months after that one to get back on track again but I did it. One day at a time, one pound at a time is all I can and will ask for.
More than anything my sole and heart has been healed for the first time in my life. I no longer feel numb to society and the world around me. I look at my family and friends with a new found love and inspiration. I have learned that I will always wear my heart on my sleeve, and take what is said to me to heart. That is ok it's the person that I am, but the anger that I once felt has melted away.
On my journey I have been asked if I would have been as successful without Sparks. I would have made it the first few months but never would I have pushed forward and made it over all the bumps, and pot holes to find myself in the position that I am in today. Sparks has given me the tools, support, and most of all the Friends to push myself and do what I thought would always be impossible.
So on the 25 of October 2007 when I was searching for a miracle guess you can say I found it!
So as I continue my journey I embrace the challenges that I my face, and the friends that I will meet along the way